Today was just like most days, nothing special going on. Britlyn and Makenna were watching cartoons around noon and Britlyn started getting really upset because I had picked out her clothes today. She started throwing a fit, so I put Ellie down on the floor while I was trying to reason with Britlyn. I checked on her every now and then, just to make sure she wasn't getting into anything she shouldn't. Britlyn just wasn't letting up... crying, whining, pouting, etc. you name it! I was getting upset at her defiance and she was just about to get a time out. I glanced over at Ellie and she'd rolled herself into the pantry, no big deal. I only keep waters on the ground. Well, apparently the girls must have been in the pantry recently because I looked over again and I saw her with the strawberry milk powder container in her hand. I kind of laughed to myself, but then I noticed the lid was off. I immediately ran over to her and her whole face was covered in the powder. I picked her up ran over to the sink and began to dig the powder out of her mouth and throat. I jammed my finger as far as I possibly could down her throat trying to dig it all out. She wasn't crying or screaming because her throat was completely closed off. She couldn't breath. I was terrified! With all the adrenaline going I just shut the fear off. I just kept digging the stuff out of her over and over. Finally she let out a bit of a cry. I've never been so happy to hear my baby cry. I knew that meant she had AIR! I dug out a bit more, but then she seemed to be able to breathe okay. I tried to feed her real quick thinking the liquid would help dissolve the powder, but she wouldn't take any. I told Britlyn and Makenna to get in the car, and we drove over to the Urgent Care clinic right by our house. She had coughed up some really red gunk and I wasn't sure if it was all strawberry milk or if some of it was blood from me digging in her throat. By the time the doctor got to her she was breathing fine and wasn't coughing anymore stuff up. The doctor looked her over and said the only thing I need to watch for is if she got any of it powder in her lungs it would cause some kind of pneumonia, so for the next couple of weeks if she starts to have trouble breathing, gets a fever, gets a cough, anything like that, to bring her in immediately. I am supposed to take her into our pediatrician on Monday and have her lungs x-rayed too. While it was happening I kept my cool really well, but in the car on the way to the doctor it just started to hit me and I was shaking soooo bad. I was yelling at the red lights to turn green. Makenna asked me why I wanted Ellie to be green. I explained I didn't want Ellie to be green I wanted the light to turn green. I've never had to take any of my children into the doctor for any sort of emergency like that, and I never want to have to again. It was the scariest thing. I can't imagine anything worse than if I hadn't looked over and seen her with that container. She wasn't making any noise because she couldn't, so I would've never known she was in trouble. Go hug your kids!! Poor little Ellie has had a rough day since then. I don't think she's feeling very well. She's been real clingy and cries real easy, and that's just not like her. I am so grateful she's okay. Tonight in Britlyn's prayer she prayed that Ellie wouldn't die. My heart just sunk, she was so scared too. We love you little Ellie, and we're so glad you are safe and with us tonight!
